2007年7月，我带夏露和夏宝去看望住院的春玉，回来后小朋友们一起给春玉写了一封信，至今还令我记忆犹新。

 

亲爱的春玉：

    我们很想你！你在睡觉吗？我们希望你能醒过来。现在我们有新的老师从美国和台湾来，希望你尽快恢复，回来和我们一起上课。我们现在放暑假了，每天去游泳，有时看电视。春玉，我们大家都爱你，都在等你。我们每天都在为你祈祷，盼望你早点回来。

    祝你天天开心，尽快回到我们中间。愿上帝保佑我们可爱的小春玉。

                              ——想你的姐姐和妈妈，弟弟妹妹还有老师

2007年10月16日的纪念仪式上，幻灯机里一边投影着春玉的照片，一边播放着小朋友们一起合唱的歌……

春玉，虽然无法看见太阳，也可以去感觉它的温暖；

即使已经离开，也请你一定要感受得到我们的爱！

 

《云上太阳》

无论是住在美丽的高山
或是躺卧在阴暗的幽谷
当你抬起头
你将会发现
主已为你我而预备

云上太阳 它总不改变
虽然小雨洒在脸上
云上太阳 它总不改变
哈啊—— 它不改变

 

 

亲爱的春玉：

 

最开始是在Bethel的网站上看到你的消息，那时侯对孤儿们的世界还完全陌生的我只是听说你在住院，当时就想我有一定的医疗背景应该可以帮得上一些忙就来到京津花园了，后来才渐渐从你之前留下的照片和影像中、还有妈妈们口中认识了你。

 

妈妈们说春玉是个听话的好孩子，聪明伶俐，能把整本整本的儿歌背下来。妈妈们还说春玉从来就不骄傲，她们问春玉谁漂亮的时候，你就会说夏露漂亮，其实妈妈们是在逗你呢，不管谁漂亮妈妈们都喜欢，特别是像春玉这样谦虚的乖孩子。

 

在过去的五个月里，我经常去医院看望昏迷中的你，虽然你并不曾认识我，但我仍希望你能感受得到我代表大家送去对你的关心和爱。其实之前我就猜想你可能会离开我们，可是没想到等这一天真正来临的时候，我还是禁不住深深的感到难过。

 

10月14日下午5点左右得知了你去世的消息，我打电话给许多人以后就坐车赶往你那里。当我赶到北京看见你的时候，已经是夜里了，你正躺在安姐姐的怀里，静静的没有一点声息。我掀开裹着你的被单，最后摸了摸你已经冰凉的脸颊，默默的对你说再见。

 

我给你挑了一个精致的木制骨灰盒，用一块红红的布裹上，看上去十分的漂亮。我把你的骨灰带回Bethel，对着你的照片默默的想：亲爱的春玉，你终于回到曾经有过最多美好记忆的地方了。

 

以后，安姐姐会把你和她过世的家人埋在一起，你可以在爱你的人那里安息了。

 

你在这短暂生命的最后一年里，经历了那么多痛苦的折磨，却也让更多的人思考生命的价值和意义。感谢你曾带给我们或悲伤或美好的记忆，谢谢你曾经在这里陪伴我们渡过的时光。希望在那边你的眼睛能够复明，再也没有痛苦，永远幸福、快乐。

Jude

Goodbye dear Chunyu.

I really wish I could have seen Chunyu when she was healthy.After I came to Bethel I knew there's a kid suffering in hospital,so I looked for all her pictures when she was still a lively little girl and I watched the videos when she was opening the Christmas presents from Ann's family.I heard a lot of stories about her from different nannies,such as she's a little bit shy and when nannies asked the kids who's the prettiest,she always said "Xialu",though many people told her they like her more.She 's such a  humble,meek,beautiful and smart little girl,she could recite a whole book of poems and stories...
 
I can not forget the passed 5 months from the very beginning I saw Chunyu till now.I told myself probably she would die oneday,but when this day really comes,I still couldn't help falling into sorrow.

Yesterday around 5:15p.m.Joyce called me,she said Chunyu just passed away 2 minutes ago.After called a bunch of people,I went to Beijing,it's more than 2 hrs far from Bethel to hope foster home,I called Ann when I was in a taxi,she was already with Chunyu and I heard she was crying through the cellphone,my eyes was filled with tears,I can imagine how sad it was when Ann hold Chunyu's body to get the certificate of death in the hospital.After I got off the taxi,I met Ann and the driver from Hope foster home,I saw Chunyu was in Ann's arms covered by the sheet we brought 2 days ago.I touched her face the last time and said 'goodbye' to her silently.After we arrived the funeral parlor,I hold her body for a while and put her on a cold barrow,then sent her to the crematory...
 
I bought a nice wooden box to take her bone ash,and covered it with a piece of pretty Chinese red cloth.After that I got some short messages from my friends,some of them said at least Chunyu stoped suffering.I told Ann actually I felt not that bad after I realized that,Ann said yes,why we were crying,Chunyu's in a better place.
 
After I came to bethel today,I put chunyu's picture in front of her ash box and thinking:dear Chunyu,you finally come back to the place you had most happy time and memories.
 
I still could not forget the incredible journey transporting Chunyu from Tianjin to Hope Foster Home 2 days ago.After I got the picture from Sarah,I realized that's the last one Chunyu and I were in it.

 Jude